As most do, I also contemplate all the new changes that I’m going to make for the new year, but have finally given up on the physical fitness workout and dieting once and for all. Maybe not in my mind, but not committing verbally across my lips. Yet it is so exciting to anticipate the NEW chapter, the clean slate and start the next year with refreshing NEW ideas. Oh boy oh boy! ! ! ! I’m going to do things differently, I’m going to be in control of my life, I, I, I…..Methinks that was a computer chip we were born with that we might occupy ourselves January thru March. Good grief, the result is abandonment. But good intentions do tend to occupy us, albeit a short time.
So heavily on my mind has been a saying, “Find a good horse and run it in every race.” I should have been named Morgan…..Got news for everyone, I done sold the saddle and put myself out to pasture!
It’s not that I don’t want to help……it’s not that I don’t have time for anyone, it’s that being the hot mess that I am, I had to get things done for myself. My two year sabbatical to get my ducks in a row became the 2 busiest years of my life;, throw in 3 floodings a family death, and covid…EVERYDAY at the racetrack. The word is NO! Politely of course, but NO. Shockingly and surprisingly I’ve already got those ducks gathered back and marching in a straight line! That’s a miracle, but considering that I finalized almost every social obligation I had, I’ve been able to concentrate on the work, the undone forever work and get it done, and the miracle is, it’s staying done!
Am I being selfish? Probably, but I didn’t create ME. That I’m detailed, always making lists, anal about things done right………that I’m passionate, rabbit trailing…..eclectic, weird…….wash any dishes again that company has dared to wash, that I am overcome by new interests…..that’s what happened when my mom and dad came together…ME! I yam what I yam said Popeye the sailor man.
It’s only been two weeks since I lifted my last obligation, but the peace that has settled over me is indescribable. This is the 1st time in my life I have no dangling participles over me. (hey, MY blog, My daffynitions!} I am actually sleeping harder then since maybe 20 years ago. The stress is being lifted. The thoughts of exploring family history, of painting furniture, of experimenting with new recipes, of what exciting treasure I will find at the next garage sale….
And yet most of all, my family. I do have the best! And our friends. Thank you Lord, I am blessed indeed.
