#108… Confessions of Looking Back

Having pretty much wrapped up my obligations and activities, I’ve  jump started on my Sabbatical 6 weeks early. Being a difficult person who HAS TO HAVE every “t” crossed and every “i” dotted, I have had to spend time just thinking…. as I can look at a project to do,  do it perfectly, only to discover it can be done MORE perfectly by doing this extra stuff…. and then it becomes a monster AND after 2 weeks it becomes overwhelming and  gets put aside to be done later. LATER does come but I have forgotten either the system I developed to do it perfectly or what was I thunking! ? ! ?

Time to copy all of my blogs and put into binders and archive.

One of the things I learned through my HOW TO BOOKS FOR IDIOTS……is that it is good to constantly update my blogs with corrections and revisions to my sentence structures until my blogs are very professional in appearance. If I ever draw enough people to my site daily, then the big boys with the paying ads will step in and enhance my pocketbook. That would be nice, but has never really been any motivation for me, as that restricts what I do, and how I do it! And if it means passing by other people’s standards, then I have already failed. So these blogs are here from a culmination of what I’ve always wanted to do….from childhood, 1st a fireman…then attorney…then author…..poet….country music song writer….eBayer….all the time reading countless magazine subscriptions monthly….interior decorator…..lifetime garage saler….antique booths.. reading magazines ..tearing out pages to save….MY GOODNESS!…..women writing blogs about “stuff”?…I CAN DO THAT ! ! ! !  I think…….

So I am printing out every blog with all pictures I took and I’m having a mental disaster. My beginning pitiful blogs look like child’s work. I barely knew how to turn on a computer let alone start up a “Domain”…www.byegonegaragesaling,com. And ME has to correct all this? This could easily get mentally out of control.  I’ve been tossing and turning this over in my mind and have decided I cannot do anything but to archive this work as my early days, be somewhat embarrassed by the mistakes, but glow in process of where it’s taken me.

Contentment. I’m doing my passion, talking about what matters most to me and wrapping it in silliness!

Some of the early blogs are missing the pictures…I don’t know where they went. I don’t care. I had a miserable time figuring out how to position my pictures….methinks I’m getting better but I have a ways to go. As I print off each blog I notice a sentence here or there that doesn’t seem to belong………remember I am cixelsyd. Sometimes I misspell words…but on purpose. Sometimes I use language you are not familiar with, but that is my generation, OUR dialogue. I try not to ever be controversial, but I have my ways. I have to tell you always that my Lord and Savior Jesus has blessed me but I won’t talk politics…too many ticks out there, Lyme for one.

Where it all went downhill? You knew that was coming. #1daughterconnie called last night and told me she and hub sidekick are looking to buy a house 4 miles from us! ! ! She sez “Mom, don’t you have a 2 year Sabbatical coming up? I need help packing and moving and decorating 3000 square feet……..”

EMERGENCY! To my #2toodaughterbillie…..take on another WEEKLY housecleaning job and put that money into a saving account for endless airline tickets. We face a hard future of 8 hour antique and thrift store shopping and PAINTING walls….moving furniture around……HELP!

 

#71…We Three Girls From Disorient Are…………Lit Up! ! ! ! ! !@