It is so difficult to put brokeness on paper, to express one’s thoughts amidst today’s changing times, to survive a lineage of people seeking their own answers and never finding peace and happiness. To be brought into a world where I was not wanted. I have to believe God looked down on me and said, “Let us give her a spirit of joy…….and tears.” And oh how the rivers have flown.
In my family, people have been so in love with themselves, there has been no leftover love for others. It’s been tough being me, but throughout the years special ones have crossed my path and made my life so worth living. I remember 20 years ago after my divorce…..so true that all your friends leave you…that there I was alone in a vast wasteland and no friends! My God was by my side and directed me toward T D Jake’s Ministries. Over time I started learning to rebuild my life. The most important things….if you want to have friends, first you must be a friend….if you want to be loved, you must first love AND if you want others to care for you, they must first see you care for them!
The Blue Heeler was going to be euthanized as a puppy because she was imperfect for the breed standard. A perfect match! Two years later a local farmer was going to put the Border Collie down because she jumped on his grandchildren trying to herd them. Another perfect match! Many years later after she passed, I found another companion dog for the Heeler, the German Short Hair, being given away on Craigslist because he jumped on the people’s 2 yr. old daughter wanting to play ball. We were made for each other!
So we were a family of 3 misfits, happy because we all needed each other. Unless you have had your tears licked away by a dog, you haven’t lived. I took care of their every need. When money was tight, they still had their good quality food, I ate crackers. All their shots on time…surgeries at one time costing $1100 for 2…They were my responsibility and I LOVED them! Between me and God and God and me, and these fur babies, life took on new meanings and healing and goodness. I must count my blessings!
Life is not perfect. But two things I know for sure…………..3 things….God has been with me every moment of my life, it’s not good wasting your time licking your wounds, rather let a dog lick your tears………………………………………… and garage sales start up in another week!
