Spring is my happy time. NEW beginnings, new growth, new hope that things will be different…better this year. And that always involves people and relationships. I learned long ago that the only person I can control is myself, and good luck with me as sometimes I can be out of control.
It’s so sad, IT IS NOT ABOUT THE EASTER BUNNY.
Can you imagine giving your only son to die on the cross so that all who believed in Him might be saved? I’m not God, that does not comprehend in my mind. However I AM one of those people who needs forgiveness. But darn it all, I have to ask for forgiveness for the same things over and over again. It is only as I get older that I realize that the things that have happened in my life have traumatized me, changed me, and affected me with traumatic shock syndrome. It is that wonderful brain that records all events and brings to remembrance all things, especially what people have done to ME. My scars have scars on top of scars. The wounds run deep. Yes, I am ever faithful to ask God to forgive me for the things I do wrong, but what has been done to me…YES I FORGIVE AGAIN.
One day I watch a movie and remember my mother and father…another day I might see a post of a sickly baby and remember lying across my son’s casket…I hear abuse and remember how in that situation I was so scared….and I was too scared to run from it. I have to forgive myself for that one…but I didn’t know there was help out there. I didn’t have any family, no guidance. So I can have the best day and a memory pops up, but thank God I know to run to Him and lay it at the cross. A well learned lesson as I get older, it’s not just about asking God to forgive ME, it’s about asking God to help me to forgive people who have hurt me, and as that memory stirs it’s ugly head I have to AGAIN forgive that person, again and again. I once thought you only have to forgive that person once, wrong! Because I get angry again, it’s back on my knees.
So we have been studying the Book of Hebrews in the Bible how Jesus is better then anything else and I did not realize there was a second half to the sentence to forgiving your enemies and that was to pray for God to bless them. OMG. This is changing my life!
So…Lord God, In the Name of Jesus, I again forgive……….. ………. …………. I ask that YOU bless THEM and show them your love.
Easter is about being forgiven and forgiving.
